I dont know what it is about this blog I guess, its the fact that I don't feel like anybody checks it that I like so far. Like its my own little space to just... be and to vent maybe, clarify a few things to any inocent passerbys, wake myself up to any upcoming realities. Isn't this supposed to be like some matrix like, but its all set and fixed yet fluid and changing. I can't help but feel like the one who houses everybody, like the spiritual mother nature but I wont delve into the reasons for that I'll let you take it how you want. Why you reading this anyways?

Anyways, they think I've got it, their wrong. They think I've got it all figured out like its all going to magically come together their wrong, and Im concerned for them because I feel like it's not until they feel the impending doom that they all throw their eggs in my basket and try to float and see if we don't sink in all the words which have been written so far. It's not their fault. Im the one who wrote that they would create a section meant to solve the problem of overpopulation with words but I didn't expect them to resort to the whole concentration camp project, I figured they would just find a way to super impose China's population laws on America, not go awry Hitler style and just up and kill everyone.

I'm not supposed to mention that, I look like some kind of crazy- whatever their called conspiracy theorists. I don't feel like one. I feel like I'm the one who planned the whole fiasco on accident because I thought I was helping. Judas, don't make it better, right? That's BS right there; reincarnation of Judas. I'm not. Well if you didn't already think I was crazy I just had to touch on religion didn't I. Why are you still reading this?

I'm like sure I could cut my wrists and what not, seriously if you don't think Im crazy by now, but what good would that do? It'd hurt, that's all. I don't need the rush like I used to. I guess I should have known this would turn into some kind of chaotic, revealing, disturbing to some type of poetry but I have to leave it here for the sake of waking everyone up to the reality that she's in a position destined from the begginning to be a failure. She's destined to be hated, destined to be overthrown from a position she's not really in control of anyways. What you didn't know? She's not the queen, she never was, that was just a bunch of satan worshippers wearing her face as a mask. People probably went for it because she was such a good girl. She really is, theres no way one can just simply fall into such a position of power and be yanked out of their perfectly normal life just to lead a nation to heaven just to be overthrown by a bunch of immortals who'll believe anything they see and hear like they have ever tasted truth. Like they could ever imagine being one of the people who they sit on in this cement matrix they've got us all twisted into. Not to be rude. I do love them, their natural diamonds, but ouch, they don't know just what it is their doing to us. Social darwinism is like releasing a house cat into the woods and expecting it to turn into a tiger. Good luck kitty, try not to choke on the mouse fur.

Where am I going with this? Isn't there some moment where I get to say that one final note that blows everything out of proportion and satisfies me but throws off everybodies perspectives? Do I ever get to get away with making a jab at the people who've been making jabs at me like i'm so oblivious, like I'm so stupid. Like I somehow found myself in this position like I didn't need to sink or swim when the words pulled me into it and told me I was some chick named Circe who everybody hated, to find out I'm the one they've been watching like "Lookie who's headed the wrong way home." I'm like do you know everything that's written? No, only she's allowed to know who's in the drivers position as she's surrounded by a bunch of devils whose only goal is to watch her lose because for whatever reason seeing her win would mean everybody wins, which apparently is something we need to fight. I'm not even saying everyone needs to win, I'm just saying lets just at least feed and house them, they don't even have to see heaven, just let their sufferring be ended. We're all children inside, take care of the children.

What are your priotities, what are your boundaries? How many boners does it take to realize she's not the one in control, and she never was. If she was do you think everyone would hate her? Why does she have to spell it out for everyone what the truth really is, why is she the only one allowed to see. No wonder she thinks shes crazy, she is she, not allowed to be I, just her, and this is her jumping out at you saying everything is not alright. She needs help. Yeah sure she'll soothe you and tell you everything is going to be alright but that's just her making the ride more comfortable. Because you don't even wanna know what's in store if you dont help her. Why should you care? It doesn't affect you. No, if it did I don't think you would be reading this. Bottom line is no, she's not anything easy to understand. She's deaf, blind, mute, and smart, that's about it. The rest is for her to witness and everybody else to find out.

But of course we all know by now, it's never too late. And surprise is the doorway to heaven.

Let there be Fun Discoveries (and puzzles) (and colorful spirits)

 ah, lets just say its hard being poised and… proper in my situation. I want to tell you that its not Gods style but well lets say God is maybe not who the world thinks He is (He's so much better). He told His children what they needed to get by/be safe a long time ago and obviously things have changed enough since then to where this is a whole different reality. You could think of Him as the entity of all that is good and true. And then the world turns into heaven.

I am not perfect- I make mistakes. I am just like you- programmed differently. I just… want people to know that whatever I do… its motivated by love. I have every force working against me right now. That’s the mechanical part of the world. I couldn’t do anything I’ve done without God walking me step by step through it. Were at a point to where there is a high tension of energy welling up and the sooner it gets diffused, the smaller the bang.

See the problem is that the force of whatever thing this is is so powerful that it has its own magnetic system. The closer you get to this information, the more you’ll see what I mean by the “spirits” because they’ll rack your mind over and over again looking for any impurities (your supposed to get excited about that- it means nobody whose going to misuse it can get it because they would literally have to change to good if they were bad). And this process took me several days of being spun every which direction having my mind being flipped back and forth and then if "they" (spooky spirits) found anything then they’d be like “what’s that?” and assess my reaction to see if it was “righteous” and id have to show them my reaction then they’d like shuffle through my thoughts like some kind of cross examination (no pun intended;) And then when it was over suddenly i felt like hell and nothing I could do could make it stop, but somehow I made it through that and next thing I know everyone is attacking me and the spirits were in control like I was on some kind of weird tight line and I could only go the direction they wanted me to go and I even provide graphic media to show how i feel (on the first graph on this post) Like I somehow ended up in the red zone only there’s no way back to the blue zone where everyone is at (i know you guys dont want me to post this information but like I said it needs to be dispersed so that I can gtf outta here<3) (... see? I feel closer to you guys already).

 

That’s me on the black dotty line trying to get on the y-axis. Do you understand what I mean when I say its going to be a powerful force of energy when I finally get out of here? How would you jump from that line to the y-axis ? You have to use… well whatever you do is going to be loud. And the more bound up I get with you guys… i'm not trying to sound all childish and threateny and whatnot but the leap has to be made, and the spirits control you just as much as they control me; you just have more area to move around. I'm… i guess im trying to say that im starting to rumble okay think of it that way and you can ignore it all you want but the rumbling is going to get louder and… wow I sound like such a flippen wierdo… ha. For real though… just saying. I iz not scary. Iz' jus like… rawr. Lemme out.

(the next day...)

So… you guys need to know what just happened because it’ll give you a good perspective so that you can do good things. Ok so there was this massive cosmic imbalance in my spirit/soul and the mechanical world freaked out like “ahhh, she’s doing too much” or whatever, and so… bottom line is. Hmm. Yeah no- they ate away a bunch of my spirit so I was kinda faced with the option of leaving it like that, or filling it back in, but if I fill it back in then the imbalance remains so I had to find a way to maintain homeostasis so what did I do? I added the part that had been ripped out of me to everybody’s spirits so now whatever lived in me that made me do whatever I did (idk I was really incoherent most of the time) now lives in everybody. Why do you need to know this? Well I diffused the explosion of energy that I was talking about earlier and lets just say I made it a little bit more spread out. So now everyone who was a threat before is now even more of a threat, but on a different scale. Its not that they’re scarier; its just that their a lot more powerful (if we could have a talk about that at some point I would appreciate it just so i know what y'all think is causing the most issues cuz i think i have a clear perspective but honestly i could just be confused... idk; it doesnt matter; God's got this). Everybody’s autopilot just got a lot more potent. Know what I mean? Honestly I didn’t have a choice; the whole world would have turned into garbage if I didn’t do it. Its… a good thing. For everyone. Even the bad guys;p

The Ideal Man

The ideal man only exists for the ideal girl

He’d make friends with you first and then let you know he was interested through body language.        

He’d wait for you to show interest back before trying to get closer

There’d be no pressure or emotional manipulation like mind games, or guilt trips

Once together he’d introduce you by name, not by his title over you

He’s intuitive, respects you’re opinions, and acknowledges you’re emotions                      

He’s not Mr. Nice Guy or a bad boy, He’ll tease you all day, but he’ll make sure you know he’s joking

He won’t voice his feelings towards you; he’ll keep you guessing, but he won’t do anything to make you doubt

He’ll be real with you if you ask, but if reality is hurts then he’ll say it gently

He’ll focus on your good traits, yet he’ll show support if you want to work on your flaws

He won’t be controlling, but he’ll protect you from yourself when you need him to        

He’ll say things like “If it makes you feel good about yourself, then I like it.”

He doesn’t control you, but he lets you know lessons he’s learned

-and he’ll hold you every time you cry; no matter what.

He’ll fight to make you laugh, and he’ll make the best out of any situation

He’ll be playful and you two will go on adventures. He’ll know when to be serious though when needed

He’ll remind you that being happy is a choice, and respect if you choose to be sad

The ideal boyfriend will respect you, and demand respect. He’ll make mistakes, and he’ll forgive you for yours

He wouldn’t date someone controlling or nosy because he wouldn’t do anything to break trust

He’d give you privacy and personal time whenever you need

The ideal man exists only for the ideal girl

How to Care for Orchids

Hello my nonexistent followers, I have yet another word worth sharing; how to care for orchids. Now I know that this information is prevalent on the internet but I have found a little trick that I think everyone should know. Yes, you should have a holy pot for your orchid, and yes you should do bark. But don't risk the imminent death that can follow an attempted feeding of your orchid. Don't buy plant food; give them fresh moss. Not only is the moss useful for telling how long its been since you last watered your orchid, it is also useful for giving them a very low dose of fresh nutrients. Orchid guru's might disagree with this decision because this could potentially expose your orchid to lawn fertilizers or parasites, so the (low) risk is yours to make.

Comprehensive All-inclusive Periodic Table of the Elements

Okay, lets be real here; I have no life. But I am so flippen proud of this! Print it out and you have an excellent reference sheet for Chem1. I am not the creator of these, just the editer who gathered useful stuff off the internet and put it all together for people to use. I'm not profitting from it so I'm guessing I'm not breaking any laws. I wouldn't know because school doesn't teach you about whats actually legal, which is pure stupidity, but i'm guessing they'll catch on eventually.

Exercise Life Hack

Exercise. How to make yourself do it.

Do not allow yourself to think about anything other than exercise. Glorify it in your mind. Think about how fun and amazing it would be. Start out small and once your doing it daily then start amping up the volume. Put posters all around your house to motivate you. Start dressing like that person who exercises. Do it before or after meals, as long as its around a habit that you already do daily. Here are some motivational pictures.

LOOK UP NUTRIENT TIMING

I'll write about it later- till then, its easily accessible information on the internet (don't read if they are trying to sell you something...)

Electromagnetic Frequencies and Health

By no means is this post going to scholarly educate you on electromagnetic frequencies and health. Remember this blog is about conversation, not scholarly articles.

Have you ever heard of people wearing tin foil hats?

Turns out this is not such a crazy idea. It protects your brain from exposure to electromagnetic frequencies. These do affect cell health, as far as I know (feel free to prove me wrong). It makes sense too because everything is made of atoms, which are made of protons and electrons, and waves of energy, from light to microwave, affect the behavior of electrons.

The question is whether or not you need this hat. First off, I recommend doing a cellphone trick where you wrap your cell phone up in tin foil and try calling it. The signal cant get through the tinfoil- meaning the waves cannot penetrate the aluminum atoms (why its called tin, I've no idea). However, try putting the hat over your cellphone and then calling, does it work?

Personally I don't think the hat is necessary unless you live by a cell tower or power lines, in which case you should move, and keep the hat on until then. Do your research on EMF, and don't buy into all of the products they try to sell you because all you need is cheap tinfoil.

As for the tinfoil hat... You can always make one for just in case. Just in case the crazy conspiracy theorists are right. Learn some science, cover your outlets... Try to be aware of potential hazards that are eluding your attention.